You're such a rarity
All that know you, see it with clarity
To know you, is wealth in itself
The truest measure of a friend is how much they are willing to help
How much they'll give of their self 
The support, the love, they are your shell
Thank you for being my shell
In life, some people you buy & others you sell
You're so priceless there's no way I'd sell, you're a better friend than words 
can ever tell
The hugest of hearts & so very amazing you are
In such a cold & dark world, you remain a shining star

Happy birthday!! Love ya buddy!!!

Damn I can’t believe this night… Awesome..

A Friend

A friend that is unique, — Unique because you transcend among the rest

A friend that is one of a kind, — kind because your heart drives your actions

A friend that is perfect, — Perfect because you met all the qualifications of perfection in my eyes

The type of friend that’s hard to find, — hard to find, because you’re so extraordinary that hard to believe you exist

A friend that is sweet, — Sweet, because your humble and compassionate

A friend that is perpetually fair, — fair, because you take the time to listen without judging

A friend that I you know will always be there for me; — you’ve never let me down and motivated me in my most daunting days

A friend with the most amazing spirit, – amazing spirit, because you are automatically uplifting

A friend with a striking heart, — striking heart, because that heart of yours has made you a remarkable individual.

A friend that is trustworthy, — trustworthy, because you have shielded me from my sorrows.

A friend that is surely smart, — smart, because your abilities to excel are honorable

A friend that assuages your pain, — because when I feel like it’s hopeless to continue, you find it in you to uplift me

A friend that can dry your tears, — because you turn my frowns into laughter and nothing but smiles.

Dedicated: Jonathan Martinez (My Brains)

—Original Sinner

My dear Brains,

This is all you are you are, exceptional in every way don’t let anyone make you feel any different because your worth is priceless.  I thank God and that I’ve had the privilege to be your friend.  I mean every word I said in this page.

However, with all this said it doesn’t mean you need to be perfect or that you are unbreakable. It’s simply that you have qualities that make you everything mentioned above. (The Perfect friend) Feeling weak and in some way beaten is part of life. It takes pain, failure and deception to build up strength and willpower.  Just remember there’s always something missing somewhere and it’s up to us to find a way to fill the emptiness, sometimes it even takes to fill the spot with something different than what we desire but it helps ease and fade the burn.  I believe in you always have always will, you will be everything your meant to be it’s not always a walk in the park but I know in my heart your perseverance will drive in the right the direction and you will continue to make me proud as you have done this far.

I hope when you’re done reading this paper, it enlightens you and gives you a motive to regain yourself. Just remember no one is worth your downfall.  It sucks to hurt but, you are the difference don’t give up on what you truly desire and what you’ve worked so hard to fulfill your future. Love yourself before you can love others.

Love,

Lavender Lee

Yes Sad, There are so many things I wish I could yell at the top of lungs.  Unfortunately, I don’t think doing that will solve anything but just gain a sore throat. How can I explain what no one could understand.  I’m so lost, I don’t see the Lisa I was, as much as I try I see how much harder it become every time.  I’m so afraid of what’s headed my way.  Facing it alone it is the best yet not comforting at all.  I’m so angry and worst of all it’s not being able to express my anger, instead I have to smile, laugh, and pretend that I’m absolutely fine.  What hurts above all is that my Hun Bun needs me.  I can’t let him down.  Some times I wish he had a different family where he didn’t have to deal with such a sick mom and a dead beat dad. He’s the reason for my struggle.  I no longer have the energy to bring the best out of the people that surround me.  I HATE MYSELF!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 

Desembre 9, 2011

Te conocí hace tres años, años en los que te eh admirado por tu inteligencia y tu valentía a la vida.

Tu amiga fui, tu amiga soy, y tu amiga seré,  aquí estaré para cuando la vida no te sonría, yo seré la sonrisa que ilumine tú el alma.

Soy la calma en el medio de la guerra, la paz que te relaja a plenitud.

Y aunque no somos perfectos los defectos son parte de nuestras virtudes.

Y entre toda esta bonita amistad, el momento se dio en que la soledad nos acerco en un momento inesperado en donde los dos nos perdimos en el gusto del placer.

¿Error o solo cosas de la vida?

Ahora soy tu amiga con sentimientos encontrados.

Sentimientos que me eh negado desde hace tres años.

Entiendo bien que las cosas que pasan en el momento son solo es eso un momento.

El momento fue hermoso y como todo lo hermoso, termino casi instantáneamente. 

—Original Sinner

Today began with a morning disappointment.  However, my day eased up; along my day I happen to realize that everything in the world is not so dark and gloomy.  I now see that not everybody is cruel mischievous.  Good kind people are still existent.